24. Helpless

Have you ever felt the urge to bash some one's head in and the feelings churning inside you, turbulent yet that you can do nothing about and just watch impotently as the person you love gets hurt time after time?

Have you ever felt the need to avenge, to protect... and the need of it a boiling rage inside that would destroy you if you didn't act upon it. As if your love becomes a failure when you fail to protect, have nothing to do, can do nothing, it's your position to do nothing!

To hell with logic, rationalism, reason, I feel like hitting out, hitting hard but all the while knowing I can't do a damn effing thing about it!

It hurts when the person you love is hurt. It hurts worse when you can only watch from afar and cannot do one damn single thing.

I would have cried, shed tear after tear, if I could have relieved you of your pain. But I won't because you have to be brave. And I can make sure, you don't have to be brave alone, right?

I am right here, helpless and futile, but I am still here in any way that you need me.

Love you. Loads. Your pain is mine.