6. Blind

I am blind to the world.

I am blind to the light.

I am blind to humankind,

With passion glowing abright.

There's a darkness alive

Resentful and stubborn,

Wanting the light more

Than it could let borne.

Shying away in anonymity

Shunning away, away from pity,

Travels through lone corners

And lanes turned gritty-

It stays blind and unseeing,

Rude, scared and mulishly unfeeling.

5. Blind

My world is perfect. There is no gap, no tear, no discontinuity. It is the most perfect thing that can be. My world is black.

4. Grateful

Begin your day by feeling grateful. Be grateful for the bed you just slept in, the roof over your head, the carpet or floor under your feet, the running water, the soap, your shower, your toothbrush, your clothes, your shoes, the refrigerator that keeps your food cold, the car that you drive, your job, your friends. Be grateful for the stores that make it so easy to buy the things you need, the restaurants, the utilities, services, and electrical appliances that make your life effortless. Be grateful for the magazines and the books that you read. Be grateful for the chair that you sit on, and the pavement that you walk on. Be grateful for the weather, the sun, the sky, the birds, the trees, the grass, the rain, and the flowers.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

May the joy be with you....

3. Capricious

I'm more dark than what seems. I bring light into lives only to hide the darkness I hold behind my back. You couldn't fight me, because I turn your biggest demon, I'm what you are scared of. I am happiness. And if I am here, the darkness couldn't be far. 

You don't know to be happy without me. You need me to cross your path and say, "I'm here." And even then, your baffled stare never wavers till you blink and break out into that tentative, doubting smile.I will be there, but never do I have you full faith or attention. I can always see the darkness behind me in your mind, thinking. The fickle me.

Funny thing is, I don't choose to be there. Only you can bring me in you, only you have the power to dispel all the darkness and yet, you think it's the whimsical, restless me who is flitting about and away.

And I think, it is the fickle You.

2. You Shouldn't Have Died

No one has a better intent than Darkness. The Darkness fills up every corner more completely than light ever can. The Darkness can hide better than the most. I'm in love with the dark. The cloak of anonymity, the shelter from storms, the Darkness always hid my tears, sometimes even from myself.

But You shouldn't have taken away that bit of light, M away from our lives. You made us fall headlong into the darkness, so unaware that we couldn't even open our eyes before there was nothing to see. Nothing at all. That day I hated the darkness the most.

The darkness that used to fill up my world, had emptied my heart that day. You shouldn't have left.

Did you know that you were dying when you were? Where you wishing that you weren't so far away? Did you want your mother there? Do you know she lives on with nothing to live for?

She had two sons. And she lost them both. One forsaken yet alive. And the other, nearest to her heart, and dead.

Did you know that she loved you best? That there isn't one single moment in her day that she doesn't think about? That you made her life worthwhile? You shouldn't have died.

Does it make me evil that I wish for her other son to be dead and you alive? Or is it me being just a weak human?

Everyone has to die, isn't it? But wasn't there a sequence somewhere? Like age? You weren't supposed to go, not now.

I still love my Darkness but it is as if my eyes can see in the Darkness now. As if the Darkness cannot ever again shroud me completely. I still love my Darkness, but there seems a new flavor in it, a tinge of melancholy.