43. Back to You

It's been a while since I wrote in here,
I was too worried about heartbreak
To remember to care,
That the heart was breaking elsewhere.
Never occurred to the git
Submerged in her own selfish despair
All the while, while the happiness
Blinked, breathed and stuck through.
Right next to you.
I forgot about love,
The one that comes, holds and stays-
The one that whispers,
You are worth every bit and more
I am here, always and always, am I not?
I forgot about you,
The promise unconditional,
I forgot to remember
Why I never felt alone-
I forgot in my selfish adventure
The reason I was here.

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P.S. I may be slow but I do love you. 

42. Goodnight

Hold me tight,
All through the night
Tucked under your face,
Warm in your embrace
Keep the monsters away
And all the fears at bay.

Sail in distant waters,
Hike the tallest mountains,
Lost in deep forests
Or with crowds in forgotten cities-
Take me away
With you,
In all your dreams,
In adventures anew

Nights that have never been better
Sleep and dreams that no more scatter,
In your arms, held fast
Peace, at long last.

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41. Weird

How can someone who talks so much, incessantly, tirelessly, nonsensically be such an irritating introvert?!

40. Heading back

I could pause in my stride and not care what tomorrow's going to bring. But stop to look around and see how beautiful the day was. Grey skies were beautiful, every little thing detailed and brightened by the diffused light coming off the sun crouching behind veils of dark clouds.

I was going home. To family, to friends, to people and places I have known all my life. To the language that  is melody, that falls softly, simply off my lips. Oh, the lure of the soil. I am going home to my mother, my country.

39. You are what I need

There was despair and darkness
And the rotten stench of death
Born out of misery of the heart
And the terrors in disguise
That broke everything apart
The faith, the dreams, the lost love
All felled down by misplaced trust
Given to one who never deserved
To one who wasn’t You
You, who was The One,
The one waiting for me too.
It is you who I have loved
With every breath of life
Even before I knew what love meant
What it meant to live
To die for the one unto death
You didn’t heal my wounds with a charm
It was as if there were no wound, no harm
You were my sun in the crushing darkness
You were my vision in utter blindness
You gave me life when life gave me up
The world righted itself when you took me in your arms
But even before I knew that I was your The One
I knew, you were mine  - the night we watched the stars
I knew I loved you whether you did or not
And I knew that’s what was meant, from eternity and time
One day, I had hoped, I would come for you
Unscathed, healed and pure
And show you my love, my victory galore
But you smiled and said
You are pure, and I heal you
With love that you showed me
I finally knew
I never had really known what love was
Until I saw it in your eyes
Unscathed, healed and pure I was
My misplaced love returned home
It’s you who I have loved for all time
It’s you to whom I have always belonged
This was my song, my tribute to you
I only have the words in me
To give to you, my love
I have no tune to add
But then I remember,
It’s you who are my Music
My Universe, My God.

Yes, I should tell you
I love you unto death
And after, and beyond.
I do. I do.
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