7. Would you?

Would you gloat if you knew I am susceptible, vulnerable?

Would you hit knowing that I would never have the guts to hit back?

Would you shout and wail, manipulate and ask straight to give up and surrender all that I collected over my life, if you knew that I would hold nothing back?

Would you want every drop of my blood, every water particle to escape as sweat, every breath till it came no more, when I'd give them up, all for your taking/

Would you stop if I called out to you?

Would you let me run just because I needed to run away?

Would you just forget, if I died?

Would you bask in glee, be cruel and merciless, if you knew that I have fallen, fallen beyond realms of gather, that I have fallen in the trap of deceit laid by my tormentor?

I would.

N.B. Pathetic. Pathetic. Pathetic.

6. Blind

I am blind to the world.

I am blind to the light.

I am blind to humankind,

With passion glowing abright.

There's a darkness alive

Resentful and stubborn,

Wanting the light more

Than it could let borne.

Shying away in anonymity

Shunning away, away from pity,

Travels through lone corners

And lanes turned gritty-

It stays blind and unseeing,

Rude, scared and mulishly unfeeling.

5. Blind

My world is perfect. There is no gap, no tear, no discontinuity. It is the most perfect thing that can be. My world is black.

4. Grateful

Begin your day by feeling grateful. Be grateful for the bed you just slept in, the roof over your head, the carpet or floor under your feet, the running water, the soap, your shower, your toothbrush, your clothes, your shoes, the refrigerator that keeps your food cold, the car that you drive, your job, your friends. Be grateful for the stores that make it so easy to buy the things you need, the restaurants, the utilities, services, and electrical appliances that make your life effortless. Be grateful for the magazines and the books that you read. Be grateful for the chair that you sit on, and the pavement that you walk on. Be grateful for the weather, the sun, the sky, the birds, the trees, the grass, the rain, and the flowers.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

May the joy be with you....

3. Capricious

I'm more dark than what seems. I bring light into lives only to hide the darkness I hold behind my back. You couldn't fight me, because I turn your biggest demon, I'm what you are scared of. I am happiness. And if I am here, the darkness couldn't be far. 

You don't know to be happy without me. You need me to cross your path and say, "I'm here." And even then, your baffled stare never wavers till you blink and break out into that tentative, doubting smile.I will be there, but never do I have you full faith or attention. I can always see the darkness behind me in your mind, thinking. The fickle me.

Funny thing is, I don't choose to be there. Only you can bring me in you, only you have the power to dispel all the darkness and yet, you think it's the whimsical, restless me who is flitting about and away.

And I think, it is the fickle You.